one of these days, i'll actually get something resembling sleep...

i'm the type of guy that usually will try his best to ignore the pain as much as possible. when my back is truly fucked up or when my nerves start firing at all times, that becomes a little impossible. i get the feeling tonight i will have to sleep in a bath of CBD oil, hoping i get more than 3 1/2 hours of sleep.

so i got a message from my doctor's office this morning. apparently, all my numbers look good but my liver enzymes are still elevated. of course, the results haven't been posted yet and they haven't told me what GI doctor they have referred me to. so, until i see some concrete shit, i'm not going to just take the word of a nurse.

part 2 of I Love You, Now Die was way more fascinating than part 1. it cemented 3 things in my mind... 1) no 14 year old should EVER be on Prozac. 2) Glee was an evil show masked as a musical. 3) the mentally ill will never get the help we need in this country.

NXT last night was really good.

Big Brother was good last night. i'm really liking the game Sam is playing so far. i'm pretty sure Kemi will be evicted tonight.

the season 3 premiere of Snowfall last night was excellent. this season looks like it is going to be great.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Holey Moley, Big Brother, Baskets and Desus & Mero.

i did listen to episode 246 of Notsam Wrestling this morning. you can find that by going here:
https://soundcloud.com/notsamwrestling/one-night-stand-2006

i will probably be on here tomorrow after a trip to the grocery store.

the weather is supposed to be way less humid tomorrow, so i'm hoping they actually get that one right for a change.

i'm off to my massage chair to ice down my body yet again.

here's hoping my friends in the New Orleans area aren't under water.

until tomorrow kids...

estoy perdiendo la capacidad de disfrutar el dolor

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Sufjan Stevens - Love Yourself
Sleater-Kinney - Hurry On Home
Emily Wolfe - Holy Roller
David Bowie - Space Oddity

"The world is full of people who have never, since childhood, met an open doorway with an open mind." - E.B. White

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

not exactly what i was hoping for...

i woke up this morning and nearly every bone in my body was aching. i figured it was raining. even after taking my pills, that agony has lasted all day long. add on top of that, mom decided to work from home today, and all plans i had for today were thrown out the window.

i didn't start my laundry until mom got done with her conference calls. her hearing is really starting to go. i figured a washer and dryer wasn't going to help her any. and given the pain i've been in all day long, the only time i went outside was to feed the cats. so, i'm thinking i may get a haircut Saturday morning. i would say tomorrow but mom has already told me we have a road trip up north to go on. i think she has to get something from a doctor up in Troy. that basically means more driving for me on the highway in the rain. i'm so looking forward to that.

add to that misery some poems being rejected... i heard back from Carolina Quarterly on the poems i sent back in April. they have decided to pass on them. so, i now have 6 poems that i really like to send out to different places. what i can't stand is how thick my unpublished file is getting. i guess i need to seek out some new places to send to.

so, since i was indoors most of the day, i found some awesome music on NoiseTrade this afternoon. i'll post the links below in the music section where you can find the FREE music.

American Horror Story was good last night. there was just enough blood and gore to keep me interested. just enough. i'm really hoping the next few episodes get much better and faster paced. my old ass is usually seeking a nap around 10 pm. perhaps that's why i'm up to 3 am...

tonight the New York Rangers start their season against St. Louis. i'll be glued in to that. hopefully they get off to a better start than they did last season. i'm going to be really interested to see how the new pieces fit in, especially since i will be seeing them on Saturday night in Columbus.

at the same time that the Rangers are on, i'll be paying a little attention to the NFL game. i have a WR playing for the Texans. i've picked the Colts to win tonight. all i really want is for my WR to do better than the "experts" are thinking he will. my fantasy football teams are in the mid-week injury scare mode. it's slightly driving me nuts. (stop laughing)

i did watch a little soccer in Europe this afternoon. watching Spain lose did bring a bit of joy to my world. but only for a minute or two.

i have no clue when i'll get on here tomorrow. maybe after the adventure with my mother. i think we have to go to the store as well. it's supposed to rain for much of tomorrow, just like it did today. i'm not sure how long i can play the martyr and not start taking the hard shit to take away the pain.

i certainly know i won't be moving to the Pacific Northwest or a rain forest any time soon.

thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Isaac Joel - Until I Find You
Kevin William - Current Fears
Addison Mills - Wonder
Emily Wolfe - Roulette

"Time you enjoy wasting, was not wasted." - John Lennon