20 years since the world was supposed to end...

my mother has this evil passive/aggressive side to her and it tends to always show up when she isn't feeling good. now, i know i'm supposed to just let that kind of shit roll off my back, but given that 99.9% of the time i'm breathing i'm in some sort of pain, it doesn't always work out that way. last night was the perfect example. i forgot to do something for her earlier in the day, you know, because god forbid i can't be perfect. so, last night she gave me this woe is me speech and how i forgot, etc. so, i spent the first few hours of 2020 thinking about my failures as a son, a man, and then wondering what way i am going to choose to die. the rest of the world gets fireworks, kisses and i get to choose between a gun, a rope or a bottle. i was told as a child life would never be fair. the powers that be never told me how unfair it would actually be. i got roughly 4 hours of sleep, only after watching some porn. i get the feeling 2020 is going to be the year my depravity breaks me. joy.

the New York Rangers got down 6-0 last night at Edmonton. i didn't bother watching after that. i was pleasantly surprised that they lost 7-5. one day they might actually realize you can't dig yourself that large of a hole and get out of it.

WWE Backstage was pretty good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT and AEW.

Manchester United plays later this afternoon at Arsenal. i'd love for them to get another victory today.

i'll probably watch some of the Winter Classic today. Dallas is taking on Nashville outdoors.

i'll probably watch some of the bowl games today for sure. although, i must admit, college football is dead to me now that Ohio State is out.

i'll probably be on here tomorrow in the morning. i know i have some bills that need to get out tomorrow and the trash as well. i'd love to be on here before the USA takes Finland at the World Juniors.

i hope everyone had a great New Year's Eve. at the very least, i hope yours was better than mine.

may 2020 bring you everything you heart desires...

until tomorrow kids...

año nuevo, nuevo yo, la misma vieja mierda

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Tom Waits - Anywhere I Lay My Head
Sade - No Ordinary Love
Morphine - In Spite of Me
Nine Inch Nails - Something I Can Never Have

"I'm not sick of not having the courage to be an absolute nobody." - J.D. Salinger

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: