playing a losing game...

i have noticed on the nights i do get to drink, the alcohol in the glass is getting higher and higher. i know my father had the alcoholic gene, as did probably all of his fathers before him, so i know my future. i suppose i'm simply trying to fool myself into thinking i'm being responsible about it all. whatever. before long i'll be the drunk writing on my back porch, bitching about the kids to stay off my fucking lawn.

i did write a couple poems this morning. i typed up those two and the one from the other day this afternoon. i think they are pretty good. i'm thinking i might really go through the unpublished file again and try to find some hidden gems. i do plan another round of submissions before August ends.

the New York Yankees pounded out 17 hits last night and beat Toronto 11-5. hopefully they still have some more left in those bats and win the series tonight.

i got some great FREE music on NoiseTrade this morning. i highly recommend checking it out.
Lukas Nelson & Promise of the Real - Find Yourself EP

Big Brother was pretty good last night. Jessica will get evicted tonight and hopefully there will be fireworks. of course, i won't be able to see the show until 2 in the morning because of preseason football. so i guess i will be following online.

Mr. Mercedes was fucking awesome last night. i think i am really going to enjoy this show.

Snowfall was excellent last night.

Lucha Underground was really good last night.

NXT was a little light on wrestling but did an excellent job selling just how good Takeover: Brooklyn could be this year.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Big Brother, Weekend Update and The Chris Gethard Show.

the reason Big Brother will be on later here is the game between the Cleveland Browns and New Orleans Saints. hopefully the Saints win and don't have any injuries.

i believe today is mom's last physical therapy session for her hip. the hip has healed really good. the problem she has is her muscles in her right leg are so damn weak that she has problems doing the little things. i told her she might have to do a little electric stimulation on those muscles to help the process. but, what do i know...

i did listen to the latest Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast today. you can check that out by going here:
https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/srw-146-joey-janela/id934576040?i=1000390868923&mt=2

it's supposed to rain tonight and tomorrow.. hit or miss back to Summer showers i suppose. at some point, i know i need to hit the grocery store. i have pills to pick up for myself and mom. that's probably $100 right there.

i guess i should actually check the mailbox sometime before i take mom to her session. i guess i have spent most of the day here in my room. hello depression, my name is...

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Lukas Nelson & Promise of the Real - Find Yourself EP
The Orwells - They Put a Body In the Bayou
Ryan Adams - Do You Still Love Me?

"Older men declare war. But it is the youth that must fight and die." - Herbert Hoover

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: