why does it have to be so damn difficult?...

so, this woman from Indianapolis and I have been talking online for the last week or so. she's 32, seems pretty cool, and seems to be really into me. so today, like an adult, i asked for her number so i could call her and get to hear her voice and see if we actually do have any chemistry together. so, she gives me what ended up being the number to a guy in California. and now she's claiming confusion and doesn't know what happened. i'm so fucking frustrated with this bullshit anymore... if i could kill the hopeless romantic in me, i would.

mom's doctor's appointment today was about her osteoporosis. i guess this whole appointment, that was supposed to be around 30 minutes, ended up being closer to 2 hours, was to see if she would qualify for treatment. she does, now it's up to see if Medicare will approve it and then schedule her yearly shot.

i wrote 1 poem this morning while at mom's appointment. i typed that up this afternoon and really like it.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night. i absolutely love that Finn Balor will now be facing Brock Lesnar at the Royal Rumble.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight and Smackdown. i'll watch 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Carolina. Lose For Hughes boys.

i'll probably be on here tomorrow between loads of laundry.

i need to get the trash done now.

i really hope everyone has had a better day than me.

until tomorrow kids...

Un día el mundo se dará cuenta de lo que se perdieron en mí.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Shovels & Rope - The Wire
Lakin - Echoed Love
Beth Orton - Concrete Sky (Acoustic) (Live)
Valerie June - Astral Plane

"In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
                                                                                                 - Martin Luther King Jr.

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: