squeezing something that looks like marrow out of life

so the phone call with my best friend went better than i thought it would yesterday. i can't imagine getting a cancer diagnosis on your 45th birthday. of course, ask me again in 3 years. i think she's going to get the help she needs and be in a better place on the other side of it. at least, that's my fucking hope.

i did write 7 poems today. mom cancelled her physical therapy, so i wrote them at home. as you might imagine, they are pretty fucking dark. i really like a few of them. i believe that puts me at 40 poems for the month. that's a pretty decent pace so far. i typed the poems up after i got done feeding the birds today. amazingly, the hot pepper suet i put out for them almost lasted 4 damn hours. they treat it like crack, it's amazing.

the New York Yankees were rained out last night. so, they will have to go back to Washington D.C. to make up the suspended and rained out game against the Nationals in June. the Yankees are off tonight and start a series at Kansas City tomorrow night.

NXT was really good last night.

Being Serena was very good last night as well.

here are your highlights from the NHL and NBA playoffs last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, the season finale of Gotham and the season finale of Life in Pieces.

i will probably watch some of the NHL playoffs tonight as well.

i did listen to the latest Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast today. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2018/5/17/wrestling-podcast-186-skylar-astin

i put out the hummingbird feeders today. i'm hoping to see some here soon. i'd love to try to get some video of it. if that ever happens, i'll definitely post it on the blog.

i'll be on here tomorrow after i go to the grocery store. mom has already told me i'll be doing the shopping by myself tomorrow. that should make it a little more interesting.

abrazar el dolor y buscar el placer dentro de él

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Nine Inch Nails - Closer (Live)
Deftones - Minerva
Metallica - One (Live)
Radiohead - Creep
The Cure - Lullaby

"I really try to put myself in uncomfortable situations. Complacency is my enemy." - Trent Reznor

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: