as i age, tragedy hits a little different...

 i went to bed last night before 3 AM. i was up today before 7. as soon as i saw my phone lighting up, i knew there was some updates on the plane crash from last night. as i read the updates, all i could think is people wonder why i don't fly.

death no longer shocks me. it may sadden me, or at times give me a pause. but, i am completely desensitized from death. i suppose it comes from being old enough to know that everyone is going to die. one way or another, no one gets out alive. i can't imagine the feeling of having a child die in a plane crash, or dying with your whole family on the plane. i'm pretty sure, i never want that feeling. i'm bound to write some poems about this. i have no fucking clue what those poems will be like. 

Manchester United won today in Romania, 2-0. they finished in the top 8 of the Europa League, which means they advance right to the knockout round.

AEW Dynamite was ok last night.

Abbott Elementary was very good last night.

Inside the NFL was good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Georgie & Mandy's First Marriage.

i will probably watch a good portion of that Los Angeles FireAid Benefit Concert tonight.

i need to go to the grocery store tomorrow to pick up some pills, so i should be on here after i get that done.

that's all for me today kids.

until tomorrow.

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

A medida que envejezco, la tragedia me golpea de forma un poco diferente.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Various Artists - Super Bloom: A Benefit for Fire Relief in Los Angeles

https://superbloomabenefitforfirereliefinlosangeles.bandcamp.com/album/super-bloom-a-benefit-for-fire-relief-in-los-angeles

100% of the proceeds will benefit local mutual aid organizations for LA Fire relief.

"The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today." - Franklin D. Roosevelt

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

nosebleeds and insomnia

so i was having a dream about meeting a woman in the south of France. there was laughter and sex and plenty of smoke, and just when the dream was going to another stage, i woke up. i looked at my right index finger and it was covered in blood. i got a tissue and put on my glasses. i then realized i had a nosebleed. as i was pinching and leaning my head back, the thought also crossed my mind that i pick my nose when i'm asleep. i believe that's one of the things you realize right before they put you in the institution. as in mental.

keep in mind that this was roughly around 6 am. i got to bed around 3 or so. fucking fun.

the Yankees offense overcame CC's inconsistent pitching (AGAIN) and won 8-5. hopefully they can get a great streak going at home in these next 9 games and really make up some ground quickly in the playoff chase. they play this afternoon.

also, this afternoon i'll be watching the college football team i've rooted for since my days in diapers, Ohio State. hopefully they destroy Buffalo quickly so i can get to other things.

plenty of soccer in Europe to watch today. i'll be flipping around between that and some more college football.

and if i'm somehow still alive this evening and not in a coma, another episode of ROH is on tap.

i did watch a good portion of Smackdown last night. i'm really enjoying this angle with Daniel Bryan, Dolph Ziggler, The Miz, and The Big Show as long as the payoff is some great wrestling and Daniel Bryan winning the title back. if this turns into just another massive HHH ego stroke, i'll be bitterly disappointed.

hopefully i'll have some ideas for poems come to me between victory beers today.

Manchester United plays Liverpool tomorrow morning. needless to say that result will go a long way to my weekend being good or absolutely shitty.

hope this finds everyone well, drunk, not hungover, not asking for help from the porcelain gods.

music:

Barenaked Ladies - Rock Spectacle
Futurebirds - Exhume

"There are many ways of going forward, but only one way of standing still." - Franklin D. Roosevelt