a day from hell...

 these are the days i am painfully reminded i should have killed myself when i was 8. i have been paying for saying no ever fucking since. so, i went to Kroger today to get my prescriptions. i showed them new healthcare insurance card. they put it in and they said it wasn't active. of course, my mother's new Medicare card was active and her pills were FREE. i spent 3 fucking hours on the phone this afternoon talking to two different people at Anthem and both said the new insurance is active. so, i went back to Kroger this evening and got the same shit i got this afternoon. their solution was for me to call Anthem and then have Anthem call them on a 3 way call and figure it out. my solution was to go to the Rite-Aid in Brookville. the pharmacist there believes they do take the insurance but she will only know when i have a prescription filled there. so, now in the morning, i have to talk to my doctor's office and have my pills sent there. none of this should be this fucking hard. i know exactly why it is though, as capitalism makes damn sure those unwilling or too stupid to jump through the hoops of the shit, get left behind. 

so yeah, given that the Dayton Flyers game starts in 30 minutes, i don't think i'll be going to the game tonight.

NXT was really damn good last night. 

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, AEW Dynamite, I Can See Your Voice and Hard Knocks. i'll be watching Dayton vs. VCU for most of the evening.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow. i don't think the snow is supposed to be that bad. of course, if tomorrow is anything like today, look for news coverage of someone jumping off a fucking bridge.

i now need to figure out what the fuck i am making for dinner and how to calm the fuck down before i fucking explode.

the two things i hate the most in this world are ignorance and incompetence. to swim in that shit all day today, my lungs are full of every fucking reason known to man to slit a wrist or kiss a shotgun.

fun times.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay socially distant.

get the fucking shot.

mi paciencia ha sido destruida

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Yola - Goodbye Yellow Brick Road

Nell Smith & The Flaming Lips - Girl in Amber

Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds - Red Right Hand

Buffalo Nichols - How To Love

Father John Misty - Funny Girl

"Very much alone in my work, I am almost jealous of it." - Yves Tanguy

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: