why i'm a loner

i knew there would be certain things i would hate when we moved next door to my uncle. mainly, it would be me coming up close with my past all too often. yesterday was one of those days. mom and i went over to help with the trash and shit because we knew that today was going to be a busy clusterfuck day. so, the cousin that molested me happened to be over at the same time. i haven't spoken any words to her in over 30 years and i never plan to ever speak to her again. i'm not exactly sure what the fuck mom thinks about that, nor do i really fucking care. so, as i was waiting around to see if mom would come outside so i could help her walk back to the house, i said fuck it, and went in. i figured if i made eye contact with my cousin, i might have to kill her. so i didn't. i instead watched the television and sort of chatted with my uncle. the back side of the circle has certainly caught up with him. hopefully remission does him well. mom finally got the hint and we left. it boggles my mind to this very day that mom has only told a few people and not any of them are the ones that should know what happened to me. of course, it's not like anything can be done about it now.

nothing really caught my ear on The Voice last night. hopefully tonight will be better.

Gotham was fucking great once again last night. i absolutely love how the show is going.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good for the most part last night. i really enjoyed the stare down between Bray Wyatt and HHH. that's way overdue in my eyes. the Chris Jericho heel turn went as expected. if it brings about Jericho vs. AJ Styles at WrestleMania, i'm all for it. plus, the return of Sami Zayn to attack Kevin Owens was great. i have watched those two fight for over a decade now. i'm not tired of it yet.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Voice and Total Divas.

the New York Rangers play at Buffalo tonight. i really hope they get a win.

mom did really well in her physical therapy today, so i let her drive by herself into work. i haven't got a call from the cops yet, so i guess everything has gone well.

i did write another 5 poems today while in the waiting room. i typed those up when we got home and i really like a few of them. so that means i have to rethink what poems are going where now before i do my next round of submissions.

it got into the 70's today here. certainly didn't feel like early March.

i don't know when i'll be on here tomorrow. i think it is supposed to rain tomorrow, so i'll probably be in a shit mood.

hope this finds everyone doing well.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Cowboy Junkies - Sweet Jane
Oasis - Champagne Supernova
U2 - All I Want Is You

"I think the eyes flirt most. There are so many ways to use them." - Anna Held

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: