fan is short for fanatic

 so, the mail hasn't been delivered yet, so i might as well get the blog done as i bide my time. i really hope the cards are in the mail today. i just want to get this shit over with.

the New York Rangers pissed away two different 2 goal leads last night and lost at Anaheim in OT, 5-4. hopefully, that will be the nail in the coffin for this team. i don't want them to make the playoffs just to get swept by Washington in the first round. they play tonight at San Jose. if they lose this game, it will be time to start benching players and play the fucking kids.

i did watch some of the college basketball games last night. i went 4-0 once again. on my original bracket, i got 7 out of the elite 8 right. not bad.

Smackdown was really good last night.

Real Time with Bill Maher was hilarious last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live, AEW Collision and Queer.

i will probably watch some of the college basketball games tonight.

the Yankees play this afternoon at home against Milwaukee. hopefully, they will get another win.

mom is out in the living room watching Wrexham play. i'm hoping she is feeling better.

i'll probably be on here tomorrow in the morning once again. hopefully, i'll have good news to report.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Fan es la abreviatura de fanático

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Deafheaven - The Marvelous Orange Tree

Rita Donte - Zunzun Baba

Bob Dylan - Farewell, Angelina

Cat Power - Visions of Johanna (Live)

The BellRays - Blues For Godzilla

"My mom used to say that Greek Easter was later because then you get stuff cheaper." - Amy Sedaris

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why would i give you money for a new phone...

 i hate when i talk to someone for over a month, we really get to know each other, share pictures, get to feel comfortable, etc. and then, of course, comes the i need to ask you a question. i know by now, that will always involve money. today was the desperate need for a new phone. funny, that was the same bullshit from a different one a few weeks ago. it absolutely seems like i am destined to be alone until i die. i'm not exactly sure who i pissed off or fucked over in a previous life, but i'm sure as fuck paying for it now.so, that was my morning. toss in my bad back aching, and you can imagine what the fuck i feel like today. i was going to spend this afternoon sending out poems. instead, i'm trying to fight off depression. good times.

the Ladies & Gentleman... 50 Years of SNL Music was great last night. if you get the chance to watch it, i highly recommend it.

Monday Night Raw was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

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on the DVR tonight will be NXT and St. Denis Medical.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Carolina.

the Dayton Flyers play tonight at Saint Bonaventure.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

i will probably get the poems out later tonight or on Thursday. 

that's all for me kids...

until tomorrow...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

¿Por qué debería darte dinero por un teléfono nuevo?

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Skateland - Postcards (Live)

Trousdale - Growing Pains

Dirty Heads - That's All I Need

Wheatus - Teenage Dirtbag

Deafheaven - Magnolia

"Bums are the well-to-do of this day. They didn't have as far to fall." - Jackson Pollock

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welcome to the weekend...

 so, today has been a bit crazy for me. we had some rain overnight, so my arthritis was crazy. even a weed gummy didn't help last night. when the rain finally ended this morning, i went to the bank to make a deposit. after the bank, i had to go to Kroger to get a prescription. apparently, my old Glimepiride prescription never got taken off, so they filled both 1mg and 4 mg. (i take the 4 mg now, have been for months) that lets me know that Rite Aid was basically doing nothing when i was getting my pills there. i got back home and had a little lunch before the Manchester United game was going to start.

now, i have really liked the changes that Manchester United has made to the team and coaching staff so far. they still need to be more clinical in the final third, but i can at least hope that gets better as the season goes along. Joshua Zirkzee came in the second half and scored his first United goal and won the game, 1-0. if they can keep some clean sheets this season and win games, i will be happy. plus, i put a little money on Zirkzee when he came in the game. so, him scoring that goal was a welcome little surprise.

Big Brother was really good last night. Cedric got evicted. Tucker is the new HOH.

NJPW was pretty good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown and AEW Rampage. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.

the Yankees start a series tonight at Detroit. hopefully, they will win.

i need to vacuum the house and make dinner, so that's all for me today kids...

i should be on here tomorrow in the morning, most likely.

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Siempre es bueno marcar el primer gol

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

J Halp - You Let Me Down

Lady Gaga & Bruno Mars - Die With A Smile

deafheaven - Great Mass of Color

Kenny Wayne Shepherd - Ease My Mind

Shawn James - Ain't No Sunshine

"Generally, a writer of force is anywhere from 20 years to 200 years ahead of his generation." 

                                                            - Charles Bukowski

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some days, it's just blue inside...

 often in the winter, or when it's cold, my depression will become this comfortable blanket. i constantly try to fight this state becoming something that is "normal" to me, and that fight has gone on for fucking 40 years now. i often wonder why i never took more drugs in my youth or become a lab rat and figure what drugs would be the right cocktail for me. i suppose, i like the constant fight, the never ending chaos in my head. of course, when the poems stop showing up for me, i know the end is near. thankfully, that hasn't happened. and i say thankfully, mostly because i feel like i have something left to give as a poet. when that tank runs dry, i will fully embrace death.

NXT was really good last night. i can't wait to watch War Games this weekend.

AEW was fucking great last night. i figured Moxley would be dropping the title since his wife is pregnant, but i never saw Omega and the Impact Wrestling angle coming. fucking brilliant.

The Masked Singer was crazy last night. i did get Popcorn and Seahorse correct. i think the finale is in two weeks.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, The Voice, Young Sheldon, B Positive, The Unicorn, Miz and Mrs, Total Bellas and Cari & Jemele Won't Stick to Sports. i watched NXT UK this afternoon on WWE Network. it was really good.

i have no idea what time i will be on here tomorrow. i need to go out and do a little shopping. mom is busy going through her things she wants to donate to the Vietnam Vets. so, most of my days are now carrying shit out to the garage so she has room to walk in her room. she fell the other day, mostly because she's stubborn and refuses to ask for help. i can't imagine why i'm constantly fucking frustrated these days.

so, yeah, these are the days where i would go to the park or across the street and shoot hoops for hours or go to the cemetery and smoke weed. 

you ever crack your ankle and it sounds like a shotgun going off? welcome to my world.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

wear your mask.

quiero una muerte gloriosa

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Metallica - Bleeding Me

deafheaven - Honeycomb

Disturbed - The Sound of Silence

Pearl Jam - Don't Believe In Christmas

"Perhaps life is just that... a dream and a fear." - Joseph Conrad

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welcome to the weekend...

 i have been pretty busy today. i know when i don't eat lunch until 5 PM, it's been a long day.

i went to the post office to mail off the baseball cards i sold. that went pretty easy. after that, i had to go my mother's bank to make a deposit and get money out of her account. of course, since i'm not on her account, i couldn't do it the way she thought i could. thankfully, she gave me her ATM card, so i was able to get the money out that way. then, i had to drive 20 minutes in the other direction to go to my bank to make a deposit. after that, i went to Meijer to see if i could find some baseball cards and some other things mom needed. i did find some cards, more on that in a bit. i also got some hand soap that my mother loves and a paring knife. after that, i went to Kroger to get the stuff mom forgot to put on the grocery list. amazingly, i also found some toilet paper while i was there. there was none at Meijer earlier.

i got a hanger box of Topps Gallery 2020 and a hanger box of Bowman Platinum 2020 at Meijer. i got some really good cards in both, including another Luis Robert rookie card (Bowman Platinum). all in all, i think i probably made another good investment. then, this afternoon, i was on the Panini site looking at cards and found an Obi Toppin rookie card for $9.99. i jumped all over that. so yeah, i'm feeling pretty good about what i got done today.

NXT UK was really fucking good last night.

Vice News Tonight had another great week of shows. they are off until after Thanksgiving.

Young Sheldon was pretty good last night.

B Positive was hilarious last night.

The Unicorn was very funny last night.

Cari & Jemele (Won't) Stick to Sports was excellent last night.

Miz & Mrs was very good last night.

Total Bellas was good last night.

i did watch a good portion of the NFL game last night. Seattle defeated Arizona, 28-21.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown and the season finale of Real Time with Bill Maher. i'll watch 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.

since Ohio State plays at noon tomorrow, i will be on here in the morning.

i didn't get my haircut today. i figure i'll wait until after Thanksgiving probably.

i hope everyone has a great weekend. that's all for me kids...

until tomorrow...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

wear your mask.

¿Le gustaría comprar algunas tarjetas de béisbol?

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Mumford & Sons - Delta Tour (Live) EP

The Jimi Hendrix Experience - Like a Rolling Stone (Live)

The War on Drugs - An Ocean Between the Waves (Live)

Deafheaven - Glint (Live)

"Progress is a nice word. But change is its motivator. And change has its enemies." - Robert Kennedy

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finally, Ohio State enters the party...

 to be honest, college football hasn't been the same for me with Ohio State not playing. thankfully, that all changes today as they take on Nebraska.

of course, at the same time today, Manchester United will be taking on Chelsea. i'd love to see United play great today and get another victory.

Big Brother was a look back on the season last night. only two more episodes left for the season.

Smackdown and 205 Live were both pretty good last night.

Real Time with Bill Maher was hilarious last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live, Austin City Limits and ROH.

i will probably watch a ton of college football today.

i got my laundry done right before the storms hit last night. thankfully, the storms were out of the area before the shows last night came on.

thanks for checking out my latest published poem:

https://beatnikcowboy.com/2020/10/24/j-j-campbell-19/

i hope everyone has a great Saturday.

i should be on here tomorrow in the morning before the New Orleans Saints play.

until then kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

wear your mask.

con suerte, el alcohol fluirá esta noche

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Bright Eyes w/Phoebe Bridgers - Miracle of Life

Durand Jones & The Indications - Power To The People

Deafheaven - Daedalus (Live)

Sharon Jones & The Dap-Kings - Take Me With U

The Raging Nathans - Live From Wonkfest

"I think creativity is spiritual. I absolutely believe that." - F. Murray Abraham

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a drive through hell...

i had to get out of the house today. i wanted mom to come along, but her back was really bothering her. i needed to go to Meijer to more or less restock the house with some cleaning supplies. after that, i drove through Trotwood, at least part of it, to see how bad it really was. as the title states, it was a drive through hell. i didn't try to go back into the neighborhood i grew up in. i didn't have the stomach for it. the bank i go to looked like it had the roof badly damaged, so i know it won't be open anytime soon. i know they upgraded the tornado to an EF4 that hit the town. it certainly looked like it. fuck me.

mom wanted a frozen drink from Burger King. thankfully, the new one that is closest to the house was open again.

after i got home and had lunch, i took a nap. i didn't sleep much last night, and i highly doubt i will tonight either.

Liverpool won the Champions League yesterday, 2-0. that's the last fucking time i want to think about it.

a little poetry news to pass on. i heard back from Darren at Parhelion Literary Magazine on my poetry submission from back in March. they decided to pass. well, that's 5 more for me to choose from for the upcoming submissions.

the New York Yankees won again last night over Boston, 5-3. hopefully, they will win again tonight.

here are your highlights from Game 3 of the Stanley Cup Final:

NXT Takeover 25 was excellent last night. honestly, everything they do in NXT and NXT UK for that matter is light years ahead of what is on Raw and Smackdown.

Bad Times at the El Royale was brilliant. i have to agree with the one review that said this movie will become a cult classic. i loved the jump cuts and just how brutal some of the scenes were. plus, one of my favorite lines i will use for the rest of my life from Jeff Bridges... "shit happens, get the whiskey"

ROH was good last night.

we had some thunderstorms roll in last night. i figure that is part of the reason why i didn't sleep well.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Last Week Tonight, Axios, Our Cartoon President, Billions and The Chi.

Game 2 of the NBA Finals is tonight. i will probably watch some of that.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. hopefully your Sunday has been even better.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow. i don't think mom has anything until Tuesday, so maybe tomorrow becomes laundry day.

until then kids...

amar a la persona con quien estás

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

deafheaven - Honeycomb
Father John Misty - So I'm Growing Old on Magic Mountain
Nightwish - Ghost Love Score (Live)

"If what I write is literature, I guess you'd better emphasize the 'litter'" - Lydia Lunch

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starting the month off with...

i was hoping to be at the grocery store by this time. of course, it didn't exactly work out that way. this is why i rarely will plan anything. life gets in the way.

i did type up the 10 poems late last night. i really like this batch. i will probably get my first submissions of March ready this weekend, most likely.

Vice News Tonight had another great week of shows.

Gotham was really good last night.

Lip Sync Battle was pretty good last night.

Will & Grace was hilarious last night.

Better Things was excellent last night.

Desus & Merro was really, really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NJPW, WOW, The Shop and the season finale of 2 Dope Queens.

the Dayton Flyers play tonight at home against Rhode Island. i am planning on going to the game. i believe it is on ESPN2. Dayton is favored to win and they need to keep winning if they want to play in the NCAA tournament this season. if Dayton does win tonight, it would be win number 20 on the season.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Montreal. i know they called up one of their kids for this game. i'm hoping they start playing the younger players even more now.

i need to go to the bank and grocery store before i get ready to go to the game tonight, so that is all kids.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after Manchester United plays in the morning.

i hope everyone has a great weekend. i hope the weather where you are is good for the start of March. we got almost an inch of snow last night. they are calling for a big ass snow storm this weekend. so, i can just imagine a calm and boring grocery store this afternoon. fuck me.

Esperemos que el clima sea mejor en marzo.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Nicole Atkins - A Night of Serious Drinking
Doe Paoro - Fading Into Black
Strand of Oaks - Weird Ways
deafheaven - Black Brick

"I know my faults, but I'm comfortable with me." - Roger Daltrey

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nothing like a mixture of anger and heat...

when the first words you hear in a doctor's appointment is the doctor saying i'm not sure why they sent you here, you can imagine my reaction. we had just driven 30 minutes in 90 degree heat to the hospital mom was supposed to be at. of course, she didn't check the exact place where we were supposed to be, so we ended up having to walk close to a 1/2 mile to the other side of the hospital to get to the appointment. by this time, my mother's back was screaming in pain. the doctor comes in and says he's looked at mom's records and this is a fight between an insurance company and the government, way above his pay scale. he said there is clearly no way mom could return to her old job and if there is a job out there that mom could do, good luck finding it. so, we went through hell for a 10 minute talk. the receptionist told me it would be quicker to walk around the building to get back to where i parked and mom could just wait in the lobby. i took that route and about halfway through it, i realized why i should have just made the way back through the maze inside the hospital. it was fucking hot as hell. and i was dressed in all black. joy. by the time i got to car, i had a good sweat going on. i still had to do the fucking grocery shopping. i went back and picked up mom (i had to drive around the block sort of to do that) and she wanted some lunch. i agreed, as nothing good comes from me going to the grocery store on an empty stomach.

i didn't get to the grocery store until around 3 in the afternoon. i knew it was going to be a fucking madhouse. and it was. i was able to get everything on the list and keep it around $100. thankfully, i was able to get everything home before the frozen foods were no longer frozen.

i didn't have the writing session i wanted to yesterday and i didn't write anything last night, mostly because i was too fucking pissed at the Yankees loss. of course, they would fucking lose on the same night Boston finally fucking lost a game.

the Yankees lost 6-5 to the Indians last night. i put most of the loss on the manager. why did he leave the starter in as long as he did? why the fuck was Aaron Judge trying to steal with Giancarlo Stanton on deck? that one really stung as Stanton hit what should have been the game tying homer in the next inning. just a fucking frustrating loss. hopefully, they will win tonight and maybe Boston could lose again.

VICE was pretty sobering last night. no one really talks about the entire generation of kids that have lost parents to the opioid epidemic.

Major League Wrestling was pretty good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

World Cup Update:
Belgium defeated England 2-0 for 3rd place. Belgium pretty much controlled the entire first half. England made a change at halftime that really changed the way the game went. and just as it looked like England was going to even the game, Belgium scored late to seal the game away. France takes on Croatia tomorrow for the title.

i've been watching videos of black women masturbating in vehicles here lately. i had a killer line come to me while watching, so i do think there will be some poems written today.

i will most likely be on here tomorrow before the World Cup final starts. tomorrow is a fucking busy one given everything happening. so, if i don't write the blog in the morning, you shouldn't expect one.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday. enjoy the sunshine, the pretty ladies and as much free booze as you can possibly handle.

todos mis mejores recuerdos vienen de una botella

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

deafheaven - Ordinary Corrupt Human Love

"It takes a long time for a man to look like his portrait." - James Whistler

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