total darkness

the guy came this morning to install the new blinds. he had them completely installed in under a hour. they are so much better than the other blinds we had. plus, the ones he put in mom's room gives her total darkness. i'm hoping that will help her sleep better.

i didn't get to bed until around 4 this morning. i thought i was being responsible and didn't try to watch everything last night. so i came into my bedroom around 2 in the morning and thought, i should really check my email before i go to bed. 200 emails later and it was 4 in the morning. oh joy.

let's start with the Manchester United game yesterday. when CR7 scored for Juventus with an incredible goal, i kind of just shook my head and figured that was that. thankfully, Mourinho pulled a master class yesterday with his substitutions. when Juan Mata scored on a beautiful free kick to tie the game, i was happy. when a free kick late got put into the net by Juventus to give United the lead, i was fucking ecstatic. both goals came in the last 5 minutes or so of the game. that's exactly the kind of win they needed going into the Manchester derby this weekend. plus, it puts them even closer to making sure they move on in the Champions League.

right after that ended, mom and i went to the Dayton Flyers game. the one thing i am going to hate about our new seats is i am closer to the bench, so i can see the coach of Dayton, Anthony Grant. and that also means, i can see how incompetent he actually is at the job. Dayton was down their senior captain last night, due to injury. so, this genius decides to further fuck the team by not using all of the available players for the game against North Florida. he only played 7 guys. and of course, as what happens when stupid is running the show, 2 of Dayton's players got cramps in the game. honestly, this shit will drive me fucking insane this season. Dayton has the talent to overcome shitty coaching, but that shitty coach just won't let them. Dayton won last night, 78-70. they play again this weekend.

we went to Waffle House after the game. we were the only ones in there this time.

the season finale of Lucha Underground last night was spectacular. the main event was probably the bloodiest match i have seen in years. man, i hope to god there is a season 5.

American Horror Story was really good last night. i hope the season finale next week is even better.

Total Divas was pretty funny last night.

i watched NXT, 2 episodes of NXT UK and 205 Live this morning. all of them were really good, especially NXT.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, We Are Not Done Yet, The Big Bang Theory, Young Sheldon and The Voice.

i did listen to episode 211 of Notsam Wrestling today. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2018/11/8/notsam-wrestling-211-undisputed-era

i might watch some of the NFL tonight or maybe the MLS playoff game tonight between Portland and Seattle. or maybe some NBA as well.

holy fuck, i just made the mistake of seeing the weather forecast for the next few days. the chance for fucking snow. fuck me. of course it might snow tomorrow, i have to go to the grocery store.

i'll be on here sometime in the afternoon tomorrow i suppose.

that's all for me kids.

Tres hombres con silbatos, ciegos, no buenos.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Broken Bells - Holding on for Life
Mondo Cozmo - Your Motherfucker
P.M. Dawn - Set Adrift on Memory Bliss

"Despair has its own calms." - Bram Stoker

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

at least i had other things to watch...

i do love the fact that the Democrats took back the House last night. that should make Trump's life a living hell, especially since that dumb fuck doesn't understand how government actually works. as for Ohio, i'm a little dismayed at the governor's results. i have no clue what this state's fascination with old white men truly is. and since the new governor is totally in the pocket of the insurance companies, i'm sure all of us with pre-existing conditions are fucked in this state. i often think back to the Mark Twain quote... if voting actually mattered, they wouldn't allow us to do it. the only thing that truly made me happy last night was the city of Dayton decriminalizing marijuana.

thankfully, i had plenty of other shit to watch last night.

i did catch some of the Duke vs. Kentucky college basketball game last night. oh shit, Duke looks like a fucking NBA team this year.

the New York Rangers were down 3-1 last night and i was interested to see what would happen next. thankfully, the Rangers scored the next 4 goals to win the game over Montreal 5-3. that's 4 wins in a row. i really like the progress i have seen from the team so far this season. and honestly, the goal Neal Pionk scored last night was fucking beautiful.

Smackdown was very good last night.

The Jim Jefferies Show was fucking hilarious last night.

the season finale of Mayans M.C. was excellent last night. and the ending perfectly sets up season 2.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, American Horror Story, Total Divas and Lucha Underground. i'll watch NXT, NXT UK and 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i'm really hoping the DVR doesn't fuck up tonight as i'll be at the Dayton Flyers regular season opener against North Florida. this should be a bit of a test for Dayton's shitty defense as North Florida will shoot a ton of 3's. that being said, i can't imagine Dayton losing tonight.

Manchester United plays at Juventus this afternoon in the Champions League. i will probably watch some of that, hoping for the best. in case you missed the preview of the match, here it is again:

that's pretty much all for me kids. i'll be on here sometime tomorrow after the guys have finished installing the new blinds in the house.

Nunca confíes en alguien que ama a Dios más que a ellos mismos.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

ODESZA - Loyal
CASisDEAD - Pat Earrings
MGMT - Hand It Over

"Nothing is more despicable than respect based on fear." - Albert Camus

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

supposedly, it won't rain forever...

the rain that started yesterday morning is still going on. i know we're over 4 inches so far, probably approaching 5 by now. my body has gotten used to this shit now. it's not even pain anymore, just fucking misery. from the base of my neck down to the bottom of my feet. joy.

i've been up since 6:30 this morning. we took the Highlander in to the dealership. the guy told us he needs to order the parts to replace the brake light and 4 bulbs. he thinks they will be in by tonight and hopefully have the car ready tomorrow. they gave us a Rav4 to drive as a rental. it's not bad, but i'd rather have the Highlander.

i do hope the Highlander is ready tomorrow since mom and i have a college basketball game to go to. more on that tomorrow morning.

i wasn't happy with American Horror Story last night. i only really liked the last 10 minutes of the episode. considering it was Halloween, i was very disappointed.

Total Divas was pretty funny last night.

Lucha Underground was excellent last night. i think next week might be the final episode of the season.

NXT was great last night.

205 Live was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, The Big Bang Theory, Young Sheldon and Will & Grace.

the New York Rangers play tonight in Anaheim. i'd love to see them actually have a winning streak. i won't hold my breath.

i did listen to episode 210 of Notsam Wrestling this morning. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2018/11/1/notsam-wrestling-210-mick-foley

mom and i went to Perkins for breakfast this morning. i have this habit of listening to all the conversations going on around me while i'm eating. this guy behind me asked his buddy if we had invaded Mexico yet. his buddy laughed and said that's the way to solve the problem. we should just take over the entire hemisphere. this is a time where i wish i had the hearing problems my mother has. i was hoping the one guy was joking. he wasn't. i didn't bother to finish my coffee before we left. mom wanted to leave because the fucking ceiling was dripping on her. good times.

i will be on here in the morning tomorrow. my goal is to have this blog done before noon. i figure they will call for the Highlander and throw everything off. i have no damn clue when i'll be doing the grocery shopping.

i hope the start of your November has been not the rainy fucking mess it has been here.

solo tuve un pedazo de caramelo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Guns N' Roses - November Rain
The Jesus and Mary Chain - Just Like Honey
Red Hot Chili Peppers - I Could Have Lied
Tori Amos - Total Eclipse Of The Heart (Live)

"You know, everybody believes in free speech until you start questioning them about it." - Larry Flynt

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

Happy Halloween

it has been raining here all day long. it reminds me of Halloween when i was a child. it seemed like everyone of them ended up with either rain, snow, or me in a fucking winter coat over a costume. i have always wanted to enjoy this day. i suppose if i grew up somewhere other than Ohio, it might have been possible.

Smackdown was really good last night. i love how they got around the fact that Daniel Bryan wasn't going to wrestle in Saudi Arabia. insert Samoa Joe. he solves most problems to be quite honest. and i will never tire of watching him and AJ Styles wrestle.

The Voice was pretty good last night.

The Jim Jefferies Show was hilarious last night.

Mayans M.C. was excellent last night. the season finale next week should be awesome.

the New York Rangers tried their best to piss away a win last night, even giving up the tying goal with 1.6 seconds left in the game. thankfully, they ended up winning the game in the shootout. the Rangers beat San Jose 4-3. that alcohol tasted so sweet last night before i went to bed.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Lucha Underground, American Horror Story and Total Divas. i'll watch 205 Live and NXT sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i did watch NXT UK this afternoon. it was very good.

hard to believe October is already at the end of the month. i guess i need to start thinking about what the fuck i'm getting people for Christmas this year.

i hope everyone enjoys Halloween. hopefully the weather is better in your neck of the woods.

i have to take mom and the Highlander to the dealership in the morning. hopefully, they can fix the tail light problem quickly. i don't want to have to fuck around with a rental and all that. or, maybe mom gets a wild hair up her ass and decides to replace a vehicle that was built in 2002.

i'll be on here sometime after all that is over.

abraza tu maldad como un amigo perdido hace mucho tiempo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Black Angels - Evil Things
INXS - Devil Inside
St. Paul & The Broken Bones - Champagne Halloween
CocoRosie - Werewolf
The Cranberries - Zombie

"Nothing ever becomes real till it is experienced." - John Keats

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

that moment when you realize your mother is suddenly old...

mom asked me if i had any plans today. i thought that was curious given that my life is more or less doing whatever she asks me to do. when i told her no, she said she wanted to cook a good lunch. i laughed as lunch has now become her biggest meal of the day. so, about 30 minutes later, i noticed mom was sleeping in her bed. well, so much for that lunch. i did a round of exercises and got in my massage chair to take a damn nap. sure enough, about 30 minutes or so later, i hear her in the kitchen making food. so, i basically had dinner at 4 PM today. i told her thanks for getting me ready for the days where you'll want dinner before 5 and you'll be in bed by 7 so then i can actually have a life. she laughed. later on i told her if this is going to become the regular thing, it might be time for my sister to start taking some shifts. we both laughed at that thought.

i tracked my absentee ballot today. the state of Ohio got it yesterday and it will be included. oh boy.

the season finale of Mr. Mercedes was fucking great last night.

American Horror Story was fucking crazy last night.

Lucha Underground was really good last night. Ultima Lucha Cuatro starts next week.

Total Divas was pretty good last night. Rusev is a lucky, lucky man, that's for sure.

NXT was great last night. i love a damn good heel turn. i can't wait to see what they do with Johnny Gargano now.

205 Live was good last night.

NXT UK was really good last night.

Mae Young Classic was excellent last night. i really can't wait to see Toni Storm take on Io Shirai in the finals. that will happen this Sunday at WWE Evolution.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, The Big Bang Theory, Young Sheldon and Will & Grace.

the New York Rangers play tonight in Chicago. i'd love to see the Rangers win again tonight.

i will probably watch some of the NFL game tonight as well, mostly because of the muse and her fantasy football team.

i did listen to episode 209 of Notsam Wrestling this morning. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2018/10/25/notsam-wrestling-209-becky-lynch

i could tell this afternoon while i was taking a shit there was rain coming. enjoy that visual.

and of course it would rain tomorrow. Friday is when i do the grocery shopping. fuck me.

i got a portable bluetooth speaker yesterday at Menards. basically, i wanted to have some music playing when i'm showering. it worked perfect today.

we got our season tickets from the University of Dayton today. i'm really hoping mom can go to the basketball games this season. she changed our seats so she wouldn't have to walk so far down. it will be the first time i think i have had a different ticket for a game at UD Arena since i was a child. i'm interested to see how my superstitious ass deals with this.

if i get a wild hair up my ass this evening, i might do some poetry work and get another round of submissions ready to go out before the end of the month.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after getting the grocery shopping done.

that's all for me kids...

lo que me hizo pensar que podía comer tantos jalapeños

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Cigarettes After Sex - Crush
Prince & The New Power Generation - Insatiable
My Morning Jacket - Tyrone

"Every act of creation is first an act of destruction." - Pablo Picasso

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ever feel like you tore something in your foot?

i was walking into the garage today and i must have stepped wrong or landed wrong and i swear i could feel my right arch just simply rip into two. it's like it split right down the fucking middle. of course, both of my arches are abnormally high as the doctor put it years ago, so yeah. i'm going to be interested to see how long this hurts. i don't want to go to the doctor yet again, but, if i have to, i have to do it before the end of the year. joy.

mom and i went out shopping today. she wanted to go look for a new vehicle but after we left our late lunch, she said she was out of energy. she's sort of depressed that she can't do all that she used to do. i tell her to enjoy what she can do, it would be more productive for you. the asshole son, always the voice of reason. we found a bunch of things at Menards today. thankfully, they were having their 11% rebate on everything sale. after nearly 2 hours in there, we went to lunch at Max & Erma's. i've decided i'm going to try to get something i have never had before at these restaurants. something with a bit of spice or actual flavor as mom can't have anything like that anymore. so today was ham, mozzarella and pesto on ciabatta bread. it was excellent.

the New York Rangers won last night over Florida 5-2. it was their first win in regulation this season. they play tomorrow night in Chicago.

Smackdown was pretty good last night.

The Jim Jefferies Show was hilarious last night.

The Voice was really good last night.

Mayans M.C. was excellent last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Lucha Underground, Mr. Mercedes, American Horror Story and Total Divas. i'll watch NXT UK, NXT, 205 Live and the Mae Young Classic tonight on WWE Network.

i did type up the 9 poems i wrote yesterday late last night/this morning. nothing like doing a little drinking and typing up poems around 3 in the morning. you'd think i was in my early 20's again. i really like a few of the poems. i probably should send out another batch before the month ends. time will tell.

i have no damn clue when i'll be on here tomorrow.

Es bueno que encuentre el placer en mi dolor.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Jimmy Eat World - The Middle
Metallica - Breadfan
Sonic Youth - Kool Thing

"If you have a book, you have a friend." - Frank Delaney

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

it's a brand new face

i flipped back to the game last night just as Aaron Judge was leading off the bottom of the 9th inning with a walk. i stayed glued to the game and experienced nearly every emotion i could by the end of it. the Yankees lost last night to Boston, 4-3. Gary Sanchez missed a walk off grand slam by about 5 feet or so. the sad thing about the Yankees this year was they were way too reliant on the fucking home run. if they simply knew how to have situational hitting, they would be the team moving on. instead, i had to look at video of Boston living it up in Yankee Stadium. talk about a bitter fucking taste.

so with the Yankees eliminated and the New York Rangers still looking for their first win, it was time for a change. so, i broke out the clippers and holy shit, it's a brand new face. i took mom to get a haircut today. when i sat down to get mine, i told the woman just make me look different than when i walked in.

we'll see how long the "normal" goatee lasts.

Smackdown was really good last night.

The Jim Jefferies Show was hilarious last night.

The Voice was pretty good last night.

Mayans M.C. was excellent last night.

the finale of Mr Inbetween dragged last night, right up until the finish. the finish was great.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Lucha Underground, Mr. Mercedes, American Horror Story and Total Divas. i'll watch NXT, 205 Live and the Mae Young Classic sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i might do a little writing here today as well. i mean, i don't sleep worth a shit anymore, so i might as well make my insomnia fucking productive. and i think i have my next poem for my SoundCloud recordings.

so yeah, never a dull moment in the life of a crazy person.

i had a fascinating dream about the muse last night. i sent her a message about it. i haven't heard back. i believe Tom Petty was correct, the waiting is the hardest part.

they have most of the landscaping finished. it looks really good. we're just waiting on another tree that was ordered to show up. and then once that gets planted, it's all done.

my thoughts are with everyone getting pummeled by Hurricane Michael.

Si crees en Dios, ahora sería un buen momento para pedir algo.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

John Prine - Lake Marie (Live)
John Prine - That's the Way That the World Goes Round (Live)
John Prine - Spanish Pipe Dream (Live)
John Prine - Paradise (Live)
John Prine w/Iris DeMent - In Spite of Ourselves (Live)

"We have two kids, my wife and myself." - Thelonious Monk

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well, at least it's not cancer

when my doctor mentioned tumor yesterday, i wasn't sure how to react. i'm sure part of me was giddy with the thought of death. but, part of me is actually (stupidly) hoping to enjoy a little of life before i die. thankfully, it's not the kind of tumor that involves cancer. what is going on with my stomach is a Lipoma. it's usually a lump of fatty tissue that develops right under the skin. my doctor told me to not think about it unless it starts to cause me pain. that usually comes about if the tissue starts to grow around the nerves. as for my left leg, they don't believe any new blood clots or anything is forming. as for my bad back, i have a physical therapy session scheduled for Monday. all my blood test levels came back good. my A1C was down enough that i could get off of one pill. but of course, my blood pressure was up, so now i'm on a pill for that.

i got home in time to watch most of the second half of Manchester United vs. Valencia. after watching 20 minutes of it, i almost wished they would have sent me to get x-rays done instead. United is fucking woeful at the moment. just unwatchable. a 0-0 draw wasn't what i was hoping to see yesterday.

Smackdown was pretty good last night.

The Jim Jefferies Show was hilarious last night.

The Voice was good last night.

Mayans M.C. was excellent last night.

Mr Inbetween was really good last night. hard to imagine the season finale is already coming up next week.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Lucha Underground, Total Divas, Mr. Mercedes and American Horror Story. i'll watch 205 Live, NXT and the Mae Young Classic sometime tonight on WWE Network.

the New York Yankees play Oakland tonight at home in the American League wild card game. i hope the game tonight doesn't go 13 innings like the Cubs vs. Rockies game did last night.

i did do a little poetry work last night. i know where the next 10 poems are going. i will hopefully get those out before the weekend comes.

the NHL regular season starts tonight. i might watch a little of the games. the New York Rangers season starts tomorrow night.

since it rained yesterday, the landscaper didn't come over last night. he had some other jobs to do and the rain caused a delay. he's coming over tonight i guess to show us what he is planning to do with the yard.

i need to go to the grocery store to pick up my prescriptions, so that is all for me today kids.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

¿Quién no disfruta de un poco de sol bajo la lluvia?

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Macy Gray - Creep
Kiesza - What Is Love
Shawn James - Number of the Beast (Live)

"Style is knowing who you are, what you want to say, and not giving a damn." - Gore Vidal

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i've been up since 5 this morning

i remember why i always hated getting up early in the morning. 1) i don't like people 2) there's even more shitty drivers at that hour 3) it completely throws off the body clock of a nocturnal poet.

i got mom to her appointment this morning early. i think the doctor understood mom's situation completely when he said it definitely sounded like she's being jerked around by the system. i'm hoping his report will back the first doctor that mom went to that said she is incapable of working anymore. this doctor also said he will gladly talk to the lawyer and tell him his opinion. mom has another appointment tomorrow. thankfully, this one has nothing to do with her disability claims.

we went to Waffle House this morning for breakfast. of course, it was gloomy and rainy all morning. joy.

the New York Yankees won last night 9-2. hopefully, they will win again tonight down in that dump in Tampa. the Yankees magic number to clinch home field in the wild card game against Oakland is 2.

Smackdown was pretty good last night.

The Jim Jefferies Show was hilarious last night.

The Voice was pretty good last night.

Mayans M.C. was really good last night.

Mr Inbetween was pretty good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Lucha Underground, the season finale of Big Brother, Mr. Mercedes, American Horror Story and Total Divas. i'll watch 205 Live, NXT and the Mae Young Classic sometime tonight on WWE Network.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against the Islanders. this is the next to last pre-season game. thank god the regular season will be starting soon.

i should probably go take a damn nap. it's cooled off enough that i opened up the windows again. perhaps that will do the trick for me.

that's all for me kids.

tendré más sueño cuando esté muerto

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Interpol - Untitled
Diana Gameros - Sweet Jane
Nina Simone - Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood

"Anxiety is the hand maiden of creativity." - T.S. Eliot

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well, mom has her new windows now...

i give the guys that put the windows in some credit. they got here a little before 10 this morning and they busted their asses and got this shit done by 3 this afternoon. 13 windows in a little over 5 hours. the one guy said they were scheduled for 2 days but wanted to get it done in 1 so they had tomorrow off. works for me. they do look really good. hopefully, they will help with the energy costs as well.

the New York Yankees almost got no hit last night by a pitcher they have killed over the years. they did manage a measly 2 hits in the 3-1 loss at Minnesota. the Yankees only have a 1 game lead over Oakland now. thank god they are off tonight. they start the final homestand of the season tomorrow.

NXT was really good last night.

the Mae Young Classic was good last night.

Big Brother was good last night. tonight is double eviction night. Haleigh will go first and i have no damn clue who will get evicted next.

Lucha Underground was very good last night.

Mr. Mercedes was excellent last night.

American Horror Story was fucking great last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Big Brother and Snowfall.

i did listen to episode 203 of Notsam Wrestling today. you can find that by going here:
https://soundcloud.com/srwrestling/wade-barrett-stu-bennett

the football game tonight is Baltimore vs. Cincinnati. i might watch some of it.

the rest of the night will probably be nothing but hurricane coverage.

i had a really good conversation with the muse last night. i do think our friendship is really strong at the moment. that's a welcome sight in my world, let me tell ya.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after a trip to the grocery store.

no hay más fuerza destructiva que la madre naturaleza

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

CLAVVS - Lay Back
Lana Del Rey - Mariners Apartment Complex
Social Distortion - Bakersfield
Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit - Like a Hurricane (Live)

"Every bad situation is a blues song waiting to happen." - Amy Winehouse

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

if looks could kill

so, i went in with my mother this afternoon at her doctor's appointment. the doctor looked a little dumbfounded when she told him that since he agreed with the one doctor on her disability claim, they are it taking it away. he explained to mom that he agreed with the report, but not with what the insurance company used as the basis to take away her claim. he welcomed talking to a lawyer and was really pissed when he found out that the doctor he agreed with actually never did an exam on mom. what amazed me about the visit was all the questions she was asked since she is on Medicare. after the nurse left, i told her to remind me to die before i turn 65. fuck me.

this appointment went on forever it seemed. it was easily over 60 minutes, maybe closer to 90. we went to Smokey Bones for our late lunch/early dinner. this was the first time we had gone in over a year. it was really, really good.

the New York Yankees lost last night to Minnesota, 10-5. of course, Sonny Gray was pitching. hopefully, the Yankees win tonight so they win the series and can maintain their lead for the first wildcard. they have just about pissed that away as well.

the USMNT defeated Mexico last night, 1-0 in Nashville. Tyler Adams scored his first international goal for the win. it's appropriate that a guy that plays for New York would score the winning goal on 9/11.

Smackdown was really good last night.

205 Live was good last night.

the season finale of Fuck That's Delicious was great last night.

Mayans M.C. was excellent last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Lucha Underground, Big Brother, Mr. Mercedes and American Horror Story. i'll watch NXT and the Mae Young Classic sometime tonight on WWE Network.

we've got just about everything moved away from the windows for tomorrow. we just have some stuff to move in the kitchen and that will get done tonight. all the blinds and curtains are down. i'm hoping the weather is really nice tomorrow and they can knock it out in a day. i know that's not likely, but i don't mind dreaming.

i've been keeping an eye on this damn hurricane. the muse lives down where this fucker is heading, so i'm a little more serious about following the track than normal. so far, this little turn it has taken has given me some relief, but not as much as i would like.

the window guys are supposed to be here between 8 and 10 in the morning. hopefully, i'll get to sleep before 3 in the morning like it has been for the last few nights.

i'll do a blog sometime tomorrow. your guess is as good as mine.

ella tiene la belleza de una diosa y sabe mi nombre

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Sampha - Incomplete Kisses
FKA twigs - Ache
St. Paul & The Broken Bones - LivWithoutU
Fantastic Negrito - Lost in a Crowd

"Every decent man is ashamed of the government he lives under." - H.L. Mencken

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well, last night sucked...

i was in a pretty good mood yesterday. the poems i sent were well received and i was feeling good. i sent off what i thought was this sweet little note to the muse and next thing i knew, she was jumping down my throat. i do understand her frustration with everything going on with her life, but it once again reaffirmed my widely held belief of myself... my timing with women is fucking horrific. so, probably for the millionth time in my life, i'm back in the friend pile. now, i'm not complaining, i don't have many friends as it is. but, to be 42 and be more single than even single feels is really dragging on me. a little peek behind the curtain for all of you, and this is something i have only revealed in a few poems that haven't been published yet. a few weeks ago i did a little brain expansion through some alcohol and meditation and unearthed a little gem of a conversation i had with my father when i was 7 years old. i quickly realized why i had it buried deep inside of me. this was the time my father called me a failure and told me i would always be one. to think about that and realize my father willingly never spoke a fucking word to me the last 20 years of his life truly hits home these days. and it gets harder to keep going knowing i can't prove that asshole wrong and get to rub it in his face. so now i'm wondering if my subconscious keeps bringing it up thinking of it as motivation for me or is it simply tormenting me. it feels like no matter how much i try to get better or healthier or more positive in my life, the powers that be within me have no fucking interest.

add on some rain, fucking back spasms and everything else in this clusterfuck... i get more amazed each day i don't kill myself. of course, i know if i do that, i have to go somewhere else. killing myself at home would destroy the resale value of the house.

the New York Yankees played like shit last night and loss to Oakland, 8-2. the Yankees lead in the wildcard over Oakland is down to 3 1/2 games. the Yankees are off tonight and start a series in Seattle tomorrow night.

Big Brother was good last night. i fully expect Scottie to get voted out tonight.

NXT was really good last night.

the Mae Young Classic last night was really good as well.

Lucha Underground was good last night.

Mr. Mercedes was excellent last night. that ending was a classic.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Big Brother and Snowfall.

the NFL season starts tonight with Atlanta at Philadelphia. i'm sure i'll probably watch some of the game tonight, rooting against both teams.

i did listen to episode 202 of Notsam Wrestling today. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2018/9/6/notsam-wrestling-202

i will probably be on here tomorrow sometime after a trip to the grocery store.

no te preocupes, tengo muchas cosas que hacer antes de morir

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Hammock - Floating World / Snowburn
Portishead - Glory Box
Tricky - Aftermath
Prince - Adore

"I'm in competition with myself and I'm losing." - Roger Waters

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