this harrowing reality

 my poem "this harrowing reality" has been published in Yellow Mama #109. you can read the poem by going here:

https://blackpetalsks.tripod.com/yellowmama/id3459.html

on an empty stomach

 my poem "on an empty stomach" has been published in Yellow Mama #109. you can read the poem by going here:

https://blackpetalsks.tripod.com/yellowmama/id3458.html

boy genius

 my poem "boy genius" has been published in Yellow Mama #109. you can read the poem by going here:

https://blackpetalsks.tripod.com/yellowmama/id3457.html

well, at least that's over...

 i almost had a feeling that the New York Rangers were going to find a way yesterday to stay alive in the playoff chase. i quickly saw how foolish that thought was after the first 40 minutes. they lost at Carolina yesterday, 7-3. that eliminates them from the chance to make the playoffs. they are the 4th team to win the President's trophy the previous year and miss the playoffs the next. the Rangers have actually done that twice now. the last time they did it, they won the Stanley Cup the next season. oh, if only history could fucking repeat itself.

here are your two videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

i did watch the college hockey final last night.

AEW Collision was good last night.

Saturday Night Live was fucking hilarious last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be, the season finale of The Americas, the season finale of Yellowjackets, The Last of Us, The Righteous Gemstones, Last Week Tonight and Power Book III: Raising Kanan.

Manchester United plays at Newcastle today. i would love if United pulls a surprise today.

i'm sure i will watch plenty of sports today.

i also hope to get some more sleep.

mom wanted me to cook breakfast this morning. i made some bacon and cheesy eggs, with toast. i joked that she better get up early if she wanted it. amazingly, she was up and in her chair in the living room by 6 AM. i laughed.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday.

i hope your Sunday will be even better.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Bueno, al menos eso ya terminó.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Old Crow Medicine Show - Wagon Wheel

The Black Crowes - Thorn in My Pride

Big Head Todd & The Monsters - It's Alright (Live)

Grateful Dead - Uncle John's Band

The String Cheese Incident - Betray the Dark

"Poetry is what we do to break bread with the dead." - Seamus Heaney

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

response from Synchronized Chaos...

 i heard back from Cristina at Synchronized Chaos on my earlier poetry submission. my poems "but not concerned", "the proverbial ditch", "here come the rainbows", "fighting to breathe" and "the baseball cards are collecting dust" have been accepted for publication.

welcome to the weekend...

 i was up at 6:30 this morning, in pain as usual. after i took my blood sugar, i got some ice and got in my massage chair. i think i got a good 90 minute nap in. that helped a great deal. 

the Yankees lost last night at home to the Giants, 9-1, in 6 rain soaked innings. hopefully, they will play better today.

Smackdown was very good last night.

Real Time with Bill Maher was good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live and AEW Collision.

the New York Rangers play at Carolina today.

i do plan on watching the college hockey final tonight between Western Michigan and Boston University.

here are your two videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

i will probably watch plenty of sports today while icing my back. i figure if i can get my spine to freeze that will limit the amount of pain the pinched nerve can do.

i will probably be on here tomorrow before Manchester United plays at Newcastle.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

bienvenidos al fin de semana

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Lana Del Rey - Henry, come on

Valerie June - Endless Tree

Sharon Van Etten - Seventeen

Tracy Chapman - Give Me One Reason

Cat Power - I've Been Loving You Too Long (To Stop Now)

"There is no off position on the genius switch." - David Letterman

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

poetry update...

 i just sent out 11 poems... 3 each to The Beatnik Cowboy and Misfit Magazine; 5 to Synchronized Chaos. when i hear back from these places i will pass along the verdicts.

a cloudy Friday...

 so, i guess i really needed some sleep last night as i just completely passed out in my massage chair around 12:15. i woke up at 3:53 and was shocked. i didn't even do mom's eyes before she fell asleep. i apologized to her this morning about that. as usual, i'm guessing it was the gin.

here are your two videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

the New York Rangers won last night at the Islanders, 9-2. they won all 4 games this season against the Islanders for the first time in over 20 years.

Georgie & Mandy's First Marriage was pretty funny last night.

i did watch some college hockey last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown and Real Time with Bill Maher.

the Yankees play tonight at home against the Giants.

so, i wrote 2 poems yesterday while mom was doing physical therapy. i typed those up after i watched the second half of the Manchester United game.

it was 1-1 when i started watching. United took a late lead and i honestly thought they could see the game out. silly me. they gave up a goal at the death of the game, 96th minute. 2-2 in the first leg against Lyon in the Europa League. second leg will be next week at Old Trafford.

i'll probably be on here tomorrow in the morning.

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

un viernes nublado

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Foster the People - Pumped Up Kicks

The Black Keys - Beautiful People (Stay High)

Weezer - El Scorcho

Bran Van 3000 - Drinking in LA

Fun Lovin' Criminals - Scooby Snacks

"Pain is filtered in a poem so that it becomes finally, in the end, pleasure." - Mark Strand

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

sometimes the pain gets to be so much...

 so, after i did the dishes at 3 in the morning... i woke up from a nap while watching AEW... the rain was just enough last night to get my arthritis going to the point where the pain just shut my body off. between the pain, alcohol, etc. i was either in a deep sleep or partially dead. now, it was only for 45 minutes, but it certainly felt longer. 

here are your two videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

                                           

the Yankees won yesterday at Detroit, 4-3. they are off today and start a series tomorrow night at home against San Francisco.

the New York Rangers lost last night at home against Philadelphia, 8-5. the only good thing about the game was seeing Sam & J.D. on television together again. the Rangers play tonight at the Islanders. 

i did watch Pat McAfee's special on YouTube last night. i laughed my ass off that the person who won $2 million last night was wearing an Eagles jersey in Pittsburgh.

AEW Dynamite was ok last night.

Abbott Elementary was very good last night.

The Masked Singer was crazy as usual last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Georgie & Mandy's First Marriage.

Manchester United plays today in the Europa League. i might get back in time from mom's physical therapy to see some of the second half.

i got a letter in the mail today saying the Medicaid had denied my Rybelsus prescription. so, i go from an 8.4 to 6.0 on my A1C and i'm showing no progress on the drug. i know the government doesn't want to pay for shit, at least have the dignity to tell me you'd rather see me die than actually live better through science.

i will hopefully get some poems written today while i am in the waiting room when mom is doing her physical therapy.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

grocery shopping went ok yesterday. i at least got done before the rain started.

ok, that's all for me kids...

until tomorrow...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

A veces el dolor llega a ser mucho

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

DOPE LEMON - Electric Green Lambo

Remy Shand - Take a Message

Anderson East - If You Keep Leaving Me

Van Morrison - I Just Want to Make Love to You (Live)

Tom Waits - Jersey Girl

"Hope is the most exciting thing there is in life." - Mandy Moore

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

now it gets interesting...

 mom did me no favors by staying up all night. i was hoping to get the grocery shopping done and be back here, etc. etc. instead, she fell asleep when i woke up this morning at 6:30 AM. she thinks she might have cancer. she also thinks she is dying. fun times.

here are your videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

the Yankees lost yesterday at Detroit, 5-0. hopefully, they will avoid the sweep today.

the USWNT lost to Brazil last night, 2-1. 

NXT was very good last night.

Dark Side of the Ring was excellent last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite, Abbott Elementary and The Masked Singer.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Philadelphia.

i went to Meijer last night to get some things that they carry and Kroger doesn't. i took the grocery list with me, so i don't have much to get today at Kroger.

i also got some baseball cards while i was there. amazingly, found two rookie cards that are actually good.

i see Orange Hitler is trying to find a legal way to deport American citizens. the ACLU lawyers are going to be busy as fuck the next 4 or however long that asshole decides he wants to stay in office.

if all goes as planned, i will be on here tomorrow before mom has physical therapy.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Ahora se pone interesante

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Led Zeppelin - When The Levee Breaks

ZZ Top -Waitin' For The Bus / Jesus Just Left Chicago

Beastie Boys - So What'cha Want

Luniz - I Got 5 On It

Wu-Tang Clan - Bring Da Ruckus

"Always be a poet, even in prose." - Charles Baudelaire

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

i hate losing more than i love winning...

 i am a very competitive person. and now that sports gambling is legal, i can put my money where my mouth is. now, i don't have fuck you money to gamble with, but i also stay true to the golden rule... only gamble what you are willing to lose. i did get the national title game last night between Florida and Houston right. i won two different groups on ESPN.com with that bracket. i went 47-16 in the tournament. that is my best record in years. apparently, putting money on it makes me a little more intense on getting shit right. that might be the only thing i worry about with my sports gambling. i am a perfectionist at heart. 

the Yankees lost yesterday at Detroit, 6-2. i did watch some of the game, especially when they were playing in the snow. they play again this afternoon.

the New York Rangers lost last night at home to Tampa Bay, 5-1. 

The Voice was very good last night.

Monday Night Raw was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT, St. Denis Medical and Dark Side of the Ring.

mom's doctor appointment yesterday went well. she chose to get physical therapy on her knees. that will start on Thursday. she thought she had an appointment today. we listened to the call again and it was for her to reschedule the appointment she had today. that will now be on next Monday. 

here are your two videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

i should be on here tomorrow before i go grocery shopping.

i'll flip this afternoon between baseball and the champions league, hoping for a nap.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Odio perder más de lo que amo ganar

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven,

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Lydia Clapperton - Espace de paix

Sam Houston & BLK ODYSSY - Floating

Miguel - Sky Walker (Live)

Tom Petty - Honey Bee

Creedence Clearwater Revival - Long As I Can See the Light

"I like to think that the best poetry is or involves a contest between ordinary conversation and ritual." 

                                                                             - Miller Williams

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

history was made...

 i did watch Alex Ovechkin break Wayne Gretzky's goal scoring record yesterday when he scored his 895th goal. to me, the best part of the game was that the Capitals lost, 4-1. 

the Yankees lost at the Pirates yesterday, 5-4, in 11 innings. they start a series this afternoon at Detroit.

the season finale of The White Lotus was crazy last night.

The Righteous Gemstones was hilarious last night.

Last Week Tonight was BRILLIANT as usual.

Yellowjackets was fucking insane last night. the season finale next week should be bonkers.

The Americas was very good last night. that season finale is next week.

Power Book III: Raising Kanan was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Voice. i'll watch Monday Night Raw sometime tonight on Netflix.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Tampa Bay.

Manchester United and Manchester City played a 0-0 draw yesterday. at least i was able to get a good nap in.

the national championship game in college basketball is tonight between Florida and Houston. i'll keep track of that on my phone.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

i will be on here tomorrow after i take mom to her dermatologist's appointment.

here are your two videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

i need to get ready to take mom to her doctor's appointment today...

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

se hizo historia

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Radiohead - Exit Music (For A Film)

Bush - Glycerine

Pearl Jam - Yellow Ledbetter

Chris Cornell - Nothing Compares 2 U (Live)

Exitmusic - The Cold

"What we need is not the will to believe, but the wish to find out." - William Wordsworth

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

i'm betting on history today...

 honestly, i never thought the goals record in hockey was ever going to fall. Alex Ovechkin just need one goal to set the new record.

speaking of hockey, the New York Rangers lost at New Jersey yesterday, 4-0. 

the USWNT defeated Brazil yesterday, 2-0.

the Yankees won yesterday at Pittsburgh, 10-4. they go for the sweep today.

Saturday Night Live was hilarious last night.

AEW Collision was ok last night.

i did watch both games in the men's final four yesterday.

here are your videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Americas, Yellowjackets, the season finale of The White Lotus, The Righteous Gemstones, Power Book III: Raising Kanan and Last Week Tonight.

Manchester United plays at home today against Manchester City. i really hope United finds a way to win today.

i will probably be on here in the morning tomorrow before i have to take mom to a doctor's appointment in the afternoon.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. i hope your Sunday will be even better.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

take the fucking shot.

Hoy apuesto por la historia.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Elton John & Brandi Carlile - Who Believes in Angels?

Will Hoge - Woman Be Strong

Lou Reed - Perfect Day

Citizen Cope - Sideways

Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds & Kylie Minogue - Where The Wild Roses Grow

"At my age, I don't buy but a half a loaf of bread, you know?" - Merle Haggard

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

still raining...

 the rain started yesterday when i went to Kroger to pick up some prescriptions. it is now close to noon the next day and it hasn't stopped. fun times.

here are your two videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

speaking of poems, a big thank you to everyone for checking out my latest published poems:

https://synchchaos.com/poetry-from-j-j-campbell-126/

the Yankees won yesterday at Pittsburgh, 9-4. they play again today, weather permitting.

i did watch a little of the women's final four yesterday. 

Smackdown was really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live and AEW Collision.

the New York Rangers play today at the Devils. yet another MUST WIN game for the boys.

the USWNT takes on Brazil today.

the men's final four is today.

i will probably be on here tomorrow before the Manchester derby.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

sigue lloviendo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

duendita - baby teeth

Emma Ruth Rundle - Races

Tanerelle - Nothing Without You

Rufus Wainwright - Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk (Live)

Rachael Yamagata - Money Fame Thunder (Live)

"Old age is no place for sissies." - Bette Davis

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

my 5 poems at Synchronized Chaos...

 my poems "changed his mind", "to ever repair", "one too many rainbows", "saw something different" and "never fall in love with me" have been published at Synchronized Chaos. you can read the poems by going here:

https://synchchaos.com/poetry-from-j-j-campbell-126/

one day i'm sure arthritis will win this war with me...

 when it rains like it has for the last couple of days, i basically know i am not going to get any good sleep. so, i basically live off of the three hours at night, a few naps here and there, etc. last night, i tried to write some poems and have that make me sleepy. after i typed up the 4 i wrote, sleep really didn't come. joy.

here are your videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

the Yankees won last night at home against Arizona, 9-7. they start a series today at the Pirates.

Georgie & Mandy's First Marriage was pretty funny last night.

i did get my laundry started today. of course, my back has filed a protest, but when you run out of clean underwear...

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown.

i'm sure i will probably watch some of the women's Final Four tonight. 

i'm going to try to be on here in the morning since the New York Rangers play early in the afternoon tomorrow.

i need to go to Kroger to pick up a prescription. 

and i need to figure out what i'm having for lunch.

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Estoy en guerra con la artritis

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

El Michels Affair - Kodak

John Coltrane - Do I Love You Because You're Beautiful?

Dave Matthews w/Warren Haynes - Cortez the Killer (Live)

Everlast - What It's Like

Sonic Youth - The Diamond Sea

"Try to be a rainbow in someone's cloud." - Maya Angelou

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

a night of storms...

 we had some thunderstorms last night, a couple tornado warnings, plenty of fucking wind, but no damage that i could see this morning. of course, i slept like shit, as usual. mom wanted me to wake her up this morning at 9 so she could call her accountant and tell him she wouldn't be coming in today. i guess i will bring him the taxes when she is done with everything. if my mother has mastered one thing in her life... procrastination. 

the Yankees lost last night at home to Arizona, 4-3. they will hopefully avoid the sweep tonight.

the New York Rangers won last night at home against Minnesota, 5-4, in OT.

AEW Dynamite was good last night.

Abbott Elementary was excellent last night.

The Masked Singer was crazy as usual last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Georgie & Mandy's First Marriage.

here are your videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

i was going to do my laundry today but my back told me to go fuck myself. so, i guess i will try tomorrow.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

i have even less of a clue what i am doing for dinner tonight.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

una noche de tormentas

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Stone Temple Pilots - Dead & Bloated

Alice In Chains - We Die Young

Days of the New - Touch, Peel and Stand

Soundgarden - Fell on Black Days

Nirvana - Heart Shaped Box

"Life is half spent before we know what it is." - George Herbert

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

before another round of storms...

 i was saddened last night when i saw that Val Kilmer had died. one of those sneaky actors that could do anything and was in so many of my favorite movies.

as for this day of National Poetry Month:

the Yankees lost last night at home to Arizona, 7-5. hopefully, they will win tonight.

NXT was very good last night.

St. Denis Medical was pretty funny last night.

Dark Side of the Ring was crazy last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight (weather permitting) will be AEW Dynamite, Abbott Elementary and The Masked Singer.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Minnesota.

the grocery shopping went well today. i saved over $50 on what i got. that always makes mom happy. the pharmacy has my new insurance in the system, so i'm hoping that will help with the prices.

i should be on here tomorrow after i take mom to the accountant to get the taxes done.

i'm hoping the weather won't be too bad tonight.

i have no clue what i am doing for dinner tonight.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

antes de otra ronda de tormentas

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Jacob Alon - Fairy In A Bottle

Kendra Morris - In My House (Radio Edit)

Tears for Fears - Everybody Wants To Rule The World

My Morning Jacket - Take My Breath Away!

The Doors - The End

"We will have total chaos without books, literature, and library." - Anne Waldman

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: